confessions of a poor girl

let me break down my shopping habits for you: i shop at old navy and similar stores as opposed to nordstrom and bloomingdales. i buy knock-off coach bags from chinatown and haven't spent over a $100 on shoes, unless it's more than one pair. my car just broke and my highly anticipated income tax check will most likely go to it and i owe my soul to sallie mae. i pinch pennies but normally don't have two to rub together.

i feel like i heard somewhere that the most beautiful thing a woman can wear is her confidence, or attitude, or something like that. i'm hoping that's true because that's what i got, especially an attitude. it gets hard because i have friends that can afford to buy the $150 jeans and the marc jacobs bag and the expensive watches and necklaces. im envious of my friends who have opportunities to buy whatever they'd like on impulse. i've never had that lifestyle and it will stay that way because i live paycheck to paycheck, and out of my mom's purse. F RED ROBIN and the economy, but mostly red robin. i'm offended at how materialistic the world is because it depletes the chances of an ordinary girl getting noticed.

i'm looking at my closet now and there isn't very much in there especially now with having lost some weight, much of what i have is too big and i was going to use my income tax check money but that dream is dead. i know i should be grateful for what i have but i lose sight of that when people are lucky enough to have more than what i have. i just don't have money to spend like that. i'd like to say one day i will but i'm going to be a journalist (hopefully) and by then, with the economy, paper bags might be in style. i just wish people didn't judge as much as they do because then i wouldn't be so self-concious about what i wore and what i don't own. not that it should matter but it would be nice to walk by and have someone be envious of what i wore - it's shallow but what can i say?

in less shallow news, i just asked my father to have dinner at his house saturday and he asked if i was pregnant. it's quite a world we live in, really, it is.